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All
In All
| April 2003
| | Rise
And Fall
| June 2008
| | Amazing
Grace | October 2009
| | Saviour | June 2010
| | Best
| July 2007
| | Step
Back | September 2005
| Coming
Clean
| July 2007
| | Tipped
The Scale | January 2006
| | Do
Me A Favour | May 2005
| | Valentine | December 2009
| | Drive
Home | December 2008
| | Walk
Away | May 2008
| | Eighteen | July 2009
| | Wave
Goodbye | January 2005
| | Fool
| November 2007
| | Weakness | February 2002
| | For
Freedom | June 2008
| | Words
Unsung | August 2009
| | Grace
Notes | August 2009
| | | | | Held | March 2010
| | | | | Jackpot | April 2010
| | | | | Letting
Go | June 2010
| | | | | Miss
Me | June 2010
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All In All
(April 2003)
There's a couple of guys that I'm after
And a couple who are after me
Sadly not the same ones
Never the same ones
And there's a couple of things that I meant to say
And a couple that I said instead
Sadly not the same words
Never the right words
But all in all, it all ends up the same
Whichever way I play, whichever words I say
It doesn't make a difference anyway
'Cause it all ends up the same
Always so predictably, never slightly differently
However I may stray, it all ends up the same
There's a couple of times that I did okay
And a couple that I let you down
A couple that I meant to
A couple that you let me down too
And there's a couple of times that I let it slide
And a couple of times, I really, really, really, really tried
I really, really tried
Chorus
There's a couple of things that I need to say
And a couple that I hide away
Often they're the same ones
Always the same ones
And there's a couple of times that I wonder
And a couple that I just don't care
And I wonder what is wrong with me
And does it bother me at all?
Chorus
Amazing Grace
(October 2009 - lyrics reused/adapted from the original Amazing Grace by John Newton)
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
That I cannot fall from the grace you have given me
Amazing grace, amazing
I cannot fall from the grace you have given me
Amazing grace
Your mercy revealed my sin
Right before my eyes, so ashamed
Then right before my eyes
You washed it all away
You are mighty to save
Lord you have promised good to me
And I believe
You will my shield and portion be
Your grace is enough for me
And I cannot fall...
Because you love so extremely, give mercy so free
That the best of my goodness
Can only quake at your feet
And you died a death so unseemly
Because you love so extremely
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come
Your grace has brought me safe this far
And you grace will lead me home
For I cannot fall...
When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun
Best
(July 2007)
I thought of you today, maybe like a dozen times
To tell the truth, you're never really far from my mind
Hey you, I need you
Leave me alone
Myself is at war with me, none of us taking ground
And in the ceasefire, I still find myself the shortest way down
Hey you, I need you
Leave me alone
But I’m making the best of it
Biding my time
I’m making the best of it
And praying for peace of mind
On my better days I can pray blessing over you and her, and mean it
On my better days I know that I'm free, and I believe it
I don’t need you
I can leave you alone
Chorus
I'm praying for peace in the thick of it and
Hope at the heart of it and
Joy at the end of it and
Even in the midst of it
I'm praying to find a glimpse of His mind in mine
'Til then I'm making the best of it
Biding my time
Making the best of it
Praying for peace of mind
Still hoping you'll change your mind
Oh God, would you change my mind
Coming Clean
(July 2007)
It's close to midnight and I should be home
Asleep in my bed, instead I'm next to yours
How did this happen? How did this happen?
She kneels before you and I hold your shaking shoulders
Feel your pain flow through me as she gently enquires
"How did this happen? How did this happen?"
Yes the scratches will heal, yes the bleeding will cease
Tomorrow's a new day
And we'll hide the wounds with the sleeves of your shirt
And we'll say this was an accident
If anyone asks
You say it's your fault, it's all your fault
You did it to prove the lies in your head
How did this happen? Why did we let it?
There’s a fear in your eyes that I’ve never seen
Yes the scratches will heal, yes the bleeding will cease
Tomorrow’s a new day
And we’ll do the most we can to take you by the hand
And pray this was the first and last time
And something’s been set in motion here tonight
Your own private darkness has entered the light
But you’ve opened a door that will beckon again
Yes the scratches will heal, yes the bleeding will cease
Tomorrow’s a new day
Do Me A Favour
(May 2005)
Do me a favour, Boy
Next time you tell a girl she means something to you
Well you'd better make sure you mean it next time
For longer than the time it takes for her to fall
'Cause this wouldn't hurt so bad
If you'd never said
"I've never felt this way
You're different from the rest
I've never known someone who makes me feel like you
I couldn't get sick of you
Look, if we let this feeling slip away
We could regret it for the rest of our lives
Please just give 'us' a try"
So do me a favour, Boy
Next time that it crosses your mind to tell her how you feel
Please don't, just don't
'Cause a girl is easy
To pick up and drop again
I've never felt this way
You were different from the rest
I'd never known someone who made me feel like you
But you sure got sick of me fast
Guess the feeling didn't last
Do you regret me now, just another mistake?
How long does it take
To fall out of love again?
Drive Home
(December 2008)
I'm on the motorway before I realise
I can't remember the drive so far
It's a concern, but I've learned
My mind is better occupied with
Things outside my car
And there's a long way to go before I'll
Get a chance to sleep
I'm on the long, long drive home
Alanis, it's ironic how my days seem to go
He makes me clumsy inside
I think it's starting to show
Is this a game to you?
Could you explain the rules
'Cause it's all I can do to keep my head up
I'm sick of speaking my mind
Should I sit down and shut up?
But then again
They said that there'd be fire and rain
And frequently pain
But there's a long way to go before I'll
Get a chance to sleep
I'm on the long, long drive home
The long, long drive home
Don't be scared of what is lost
It's just your history screaming past
I'm on the motorway and now I realise
That this must be providence
A better way of making sense
My future in the present tense
I'm on the drive home
Eighteen
(July 2009)
She said no once
Now she can't decide if she regrets it
But it's so long since, and so much done
It almost doesn't matter anyway
She opens a box and pulls out the Valentine
And wonders if it's too late to tell him she's changed her mind
'Cause who really knows what they want
At eighteen?
Am I surprised to find you still here after all this time
Am I surprised to see you haven't changed?
And yet you've changed somehow
Maybe I have changed
But a delicate flower can't be
Persuaded to bloom out of season
And so I wait, and so I wait some more
Open your eyes, blink and you'll miss it, don't be left behind
But am I already too late to change my mind?
Who really knows what they want
At eighteen?
And when do want and need
Line up anyway?
She crosses her fingers and writes him a Valentine
Then at the letter box lingers, and tries to make up her mind
Fool
(November 2007)
You seem to have a lot to say for yourself
You've got a certain way with words
And I'm impressed, despite myself
I'll give you bonus points for sheer nerve
You should know, I've been warned about your style
Heard cautionary tales about that smile
But you seem harmless enough to me, we'll see
So you can tell me that you like me Baby
I can enjoy a drink and some flattery
But don't push me too far
And don't you try to fool me boy
'Cause I'm no fool, no fool
A glass of wine and a compliment later
I feel my resolution starting to waiver
I'm losing my appreciation of danger
Hypnotised by the eyes of a stranger
Well you may be charming but you're
No prince of mine
You get up to go to the bar
And I regroup, tell myself not to fall too far
It's a situation for hesitation
I take a step back, reassess the facts, Baby
My senses heightened and my conflict rekindled
My mind is waking up and starting to tingle
Truth and fiction are refusing to mingle
I think you're lying when you say you're single
So you can write it in a letter baby
I will take your sugar with a cup of tea, yeah
Do you take me for a fool?
No, don't you try to fool me boy
'Cause I'm no fool, I'm no fool
I tried to warn you Baby, you ignored me Baby
I told you boy, I'm no fool
For Freedom
(June 2008)
In seeking your purpose, oh God I'm so nervous
Of even putting one foot wrong
So in this task of deciding which should be exciting
I'm filled with a sense of fear so strong
And I'm begging for some kind of sign
To show me where you'd have me go
So often I've strayed from the path you have laid
Sometimes even knowingly
And so I'm fearful of finding a lifetime of climbing
Will never bring me back to what you'd planned for me
Help me believe that you will take me
Where you'd have me go
'Cause you know all my 'could've beens'
All my 'wonder if it should've beens'
Nothing's a surprise, you're not paralysed
Wondering how I got here
And though there are times when I've got it wrong
You've been rooting for me all along
Cocooning my mistakes in your hand of grace
Oh Lord, I won't be afraid
So busy regretting I'm almost forgetting
That you have done the hardest part
My victory is certain, you've lifted the burden
And promised that you'll finish what you start
Help me believe that you will complete
What you're doing in me
Chorus
Oh Lord, you paid a high price for me
And it was for freedom you set me free
You know all my 'could've beens'
Sometimes I wonder if they should've been
But you have brought us safe this far
And through these trials you're redeeming me
Since the day you put this dream in me
Lord, I can't wait to see
What your love makes of me
I won't be afraid
Grace Notes
(August 2009)
Rising and falling, dipping and soaring
Like a bird in flight
My breath in sound and colour
A thrilling serenade
Twisting and turning, taking the road less travelled
A life unravelled in song
And I've been so long
Singing solo
But if you're composing a symphony
Well I don't wanna sing out of key
I'll live my life as a melody
Strong and free
But would you be the chorus of my song?
The tune they'll keep on humming even after I'm gone
Take my rhythm and take my rhyme
I'll take the harmony line
Soft as a lullaby, strong as a storm
Breathtaking melodies with heartbreaking chords
All become beautiful
As you scatter the score with grace notes
Making me sound the way I was made to sound
Purer, sweeter since I was found
Let the music in me resound
Clear and loud
And would you be the chorus of my song?
The tune they'll keep on humming even after I'm gone
Take my rhythm and take my rhyme
I'll take the harmony line
I love the way you sing over me
Unending mercy, hope renewed in cleansing rain
Your rich refrain
You're composing a symphony
A glorious expression of wonder and majesty
Every movement a hymn of praise
Your anthem raised
And this will be the chorus of my song
The tune they'll keep on humming even after I'm gone
Take my rhythm and take my rhyme
I'll take the harmony line
Held
(March 2010)
All
the seas you want to part for me
I've swum across before I've even
thought to pray
And the light you want to hold for me
I do without
and stumble round to feel my way
I get by okay on my own
Then
you let the floods come rushing in
Washing away my fortress, my
stronghold
You shatter my illusion of control
And here among the
crashing waves
I find I'm safe, held in your hand
All the seas
you'd have me walk upon
I row across because that seems more
sensible
Then I watch as others step into the water
And watch them
run to you
And wonder when I'll get my miracle
So Lord, if that
is you, then bid me come
And when I sink into the waves
I'll find
I'm safe, held in your hand
Lord, if I know you
You won't let
me drown here, sink down here
Lord, if I know you
You will keep me
safe here 'til
This storm is still
Held in your hand
My
castle, nothing more than rubble
So quick to fall, for all my trouble
And
yet I stand
For you've shaken all that could be shaken
Stripped
away, but not forsaken your child
Jackpot
(April
2010)
You've
got your poker face, giving nothing
away
And I can't tell - do you like me or not Babe?
Am I mistaking
the signs or are you just taking your time?
Oh I can't tell - do you
like me or not Babe?
What have you got to lose?
It's your move
A
spin of the wheel - you might get lucky
A roll of those dice - it
could be your day
Don't say you're not a betting man
You're
playing the game like you play best
You keep your cards close to your
chest
But you've got to go out on a limb
If you want to win
If
you want to win my hand
You know I can't deny, the stakes
are high
And I can understand if you're weighing it up Babe
Risking
it all, you could fly, you could fall
So is it worth you fighting
for?
Do you want it or not Babe?
You might get lucky
Take
a chance - it could be your day
Don't say you're not a betting man
You're
playing the game like you play best
You keep your cards close to
your chest
But you've got to go out on a limb
If you want to win
If
you want to win my hand
The odds are on your side you see
But
you've got to gamble to win the prize, it could be the jackpot
Trust
and believe in
A spin of the wheel - you might get lucky
A
roll of those dice - it could be your day
Don't say you're not a
betting man
Don't keep me in suspense Baby
You've got to get off
the fence Baby
And let me know
Do you want me or not?
Letting
Go
(June 2010)
This is the letter that I would send you if it wasn't about you
I finally got up the nerve to ask him and it didn't work out like I thought
So now I just have to let go, though who knows if it's the end of the story
Read no for maybe, or I'll go insane
And I think that I am angry 'cause I've wasted so much time
Opening myself to this, when I could've easily walked on by
See, I don't think he took in that I am as uncertain as he is
All I know is that I want to know, and yet he's telling me just to give up
And now I'm supposed to let go even though it doesn't feel like it's over
And I am powerless to complain
And I think that I am angry 'cause he read between the lines
Assuming I would need protecting from such emotionally complex things
But I'd rather the confusion and heartache for a time
Than arbitrary choices made too soon
And then I remember that things like these are why I trust him completely
He'll always think of me first even when I don't want him to
So if I'm honest, I am angry 'cause he saw through my charade
And he didn't play along with the casual little song I sang him
He knows me far too well for that, I guess
So this it the letter that I would send you if it wasn't about you
You're always so good at listening, and I could really use your advice right now
Miss
Me
(June 2010)
You became the enemy somehow
Somewhere
along the line, I made this a war
I hate the way I feel about you
now
Never enough any more
So my friend, what should I do now, do
now?
You became the one that I wanted
Somewhere along the
line, I opened my eyes
I love the way I feel about you now
Suddenly
all seems right
So my love, why don't you miss me, miss me?
I
don't want to play these games
But I'm in over my head
Wishing
you with me
I'd be lying if I said
I'm feeling all grown up now
Why
don't you miss me?
You became what everything rests on
Decisions
to raise or fold, to leave or to stay
You know the way I feel about
you now
Are you going to take this away?
Now that I want it so
bad, so bad
I don't want to play these games
But I'm in
over my head
Wishing you with me
I'd be lying if I said
I'm
feeling in control now
Why don't you miss me?
I know it's a
long time coming
I know it's a lot to bear
I know it could all go
wrong, all go wrong
Yes, I'm scared
I don't want to play
these games
But I'm in over my head
Wishing you with me
I'd be
lying if I said
I know where this will end
But tell me you miss me
Rise
and Fall
(June 2008)
Are you interested in me?
I'm
really
very interesting
Don't you want to write me?
Immortalise me?
Make
me into words that you sing
'Cause
everybody wants to be the paint in your brush
And everybody wants to
be your muse
Tell me, how's it feel to be the star that no one can
touch?
The darling of the stylish reviews
You've got
sushi in your dressing room
And paparazzi waiting outside
A
million eyes will follow you wherever you go
But oh, you'd never give
up this life
'Cause everybody
caters to your every demand
Your every whim is quickly satisfied
We
tell each other stories of your fabulous life
And eagerly await your
demise
'Cause everybody wants to be the heir to your throne
And
everybody's looking for their chance
So how's the view up there with
you, do you see below
The crowds of vultures dancing your dance
Waiting for you to fall, for the fall
Waiting
for you to fall, for the fall
Waiting for you to fall, for the fall
Waiting
for you to fall
Now everybody's grooving to the next bug thing
You
find yourself in yesterday's news
Singing, "Don't you want to write
me, immortalise me?
Make me into anything you choose"
Oo-ooh,
oo-ooh
Fame is such a dangerous ruse
We spin the wheel, now how's
it feel to forfeit our love?
A terrible love to lose
Saviour
(June 2010 -
some lyrics shamelessly stolen from Jon Acuff here,
here
and here)
Try, try again
Try a little
harder this time
By now I
should know better
By now I should be good
Oh when will I learn
That
no matter how hard I try
I can't fix me with me
I made my
mistakes, made my excuses
I let others tell me I wasn't so bad
But
I could not deny, could not justify
The chaos within, the sheer
depth of my sin
Longing to rectify, sanctify
Purify myself, but
while I
Searched inside for a solution
You gave me a saviour
instead
Look up and be healed
Kneel down, be made beautiful
There's
no escaping the scandal of grace
A snake on a pole, the son
on a cross
Beacons of hope in the desert place
For the sake of the
ones who are lost
Here in the wilderness of my brokenness
I see
Christ crucified, God glorified
Holiness satisfied, death defied
Heaven's
doors opening wide
Look up and be healed...
Look up
and be healed
Kneel down, be made beautiful
There's no escaping
the scandalous, marvellous grace
Step Back
(September 2005)
The other Sunday, well you told me not to worry
Now I'm worrying incessantly
I’m trying harder, but the trying makes it harder
More I look the more I see
Now I realise I’m worried
And I worry that I’m not supposed to be
Oh Lord, sometimes I wonder how you don’t get sick of me
I’d rather read this in a textbook
Or watch a documentary on TV
Or could I practise with a dummy
if you come and do the tricky bit for me?
Aren’t you worried that I might blow
This whole lab to smithereens?
Oh Lord, sometimes I wonder how you put up with me
'Cause I know
I’m a difficult pupil and these lessons are hard to learn so fast
I’ve got another silly question, guess I never pay enough attention in class
Tell me, are you really sure that I am on the right track, ‘cause it feels like
One step forward and then seven-eighths of a step back
I’ve been told that you’re in control
I was thinking maybe we could talk that through
Can we negotiate, I’ll be straight with you
Don’t wanna wait if there’s an option two
If it’s not too much to ask, I can meet the task
I’ll run my own life thank you
Until I fall flat on my face and crawl right back to you
This evidently isn’t quite as elementary
As I thought it would be way back when
A steep learning curve, I live to serve you
And make my life a song of praise
Easy to say but every day I falter, I fail
This alteration is slow
Are you sure it’s worth your time?
Lord you know
Chorus
You said “Take this mustard seed, it’s enough for you, you’ll see”
Don’t you know me by now, I need a thousand trees, one seed is no good to me
You try moving a mountain with molehills interrupting
Constantly inviting me to take the whole world in my hands
‘Til you gently remind me, you’re giving me chance after chance
I don’t need to get it right all the time
You’ll make me right in your time
And sometime, somewhere down the line
I will find I’ve finally got somewhere
You’re changing me by degrees
I know your loving care
And when I’ve run the race
I’ll taste the fruit of every prayer
But Lord, sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get there
‘Cause
I’m a difficult pupil and these lessons are hard to learn
I’ve got another silly question, guess I never pay enough attention
But I’m starting to feel like I might be on the right track, after all that
One step forward and then maybe just half a step back
Tipped The Scale
(January 2006)
Unexpected pain is harder to take
Hearts that think they’re strong are easier to break
You were all or nothing and your nothing was a shock, ready or not
You were already gone
I loved you more than I said I did
I never quite knew how to admit to it
I let you chase me, I kinda liked being adored
But I was already yours
And if I had my time again, I’d show you better
You tipped the scale when you got off, suddenly
All the weight of care was on my side, well honey
I’ve held your share for long enough
It’s time to let go
Well I felt the balance shift, I got the pain, you got the power
I must confess I had expected the other way round
So I was shaken by the force of your goodbye
You were no longer mine
And though I’ve had some time away, I’m still no better
Chorus
Lying here I’ve kissed you, talked with you, laughed with you
Prayed for you, cried over you, dreamed of you
Woken up and missed you
And I miss you every day, I miss you every day, I miss you
But it’s over
I tried to justify the pain I could not deny
I talked myself into believing we would one day be right
But emotions can’t be trusted in this game
And now I’m finally thinking straight, I know better
Chorus
Valentine
(December 2009)
Be my Valentine Baby
Does it matter I don't love you?
We're just killing time
But I know that we'd both hate to be alone
Tell me Baby
Does it matter that romance is
Just a game we play?
Well I've got no plans tonight
Won't be the rest of my life
Will it?
Be my Valentine Baby
If only for a while
We can dress up to look the part
Blow candy kisses from velvet hearts
And make believe
Yeah, you'll be the one as long as you stay
And I'll keep believing one day
A better prince will come along
I know he will come, I know he will come
It's only a matter of time
Isn't it?
Be my Valentine Baby, please
Be my escape, be my excuse
Be my better than nothing
I know it's not much
But wouldn't you just hate to be alone?
Walk Away
(May 2008)
So I guess you’re really leaving now
I don’t know what to say
Maybe if I’d believed you
But it happened just the same way as always
You’re constantly telling me you’ve had enough
Giving me ultimatums to change
It’s not playing fair to suddenly turn round
And say you meant it this time
How can you let me let you walk away like that?
You know I’m not strong enough
To beg you to come back
I know I’m a lot to take
Everybody eventually breaks
But I thought you would make it, you made it so long
Guess I was wrong
Now you say you need some space
A little time to sort your head out
But once you’re out that door, once you get away
You’ll be gone, gone
How can you let me let you walk away like that?
You know I’m not strong enough
To pick all these pieces up on my own
This time
So I guess you’re really leaving now
I don’t know what to say
Except please don’t walk away like that
You know I’m not strong enough
To say any more than that
Wave Goodbye
(January 2005)
I met an angel and she told me I'd be okay
She said, "Don't worry Babe
This will not hurt forever
Nothing hurts forever"
But I'm holding onto air
It's a long way to fall my love
But what do I know?
Tomorrow may show me how
"Wave goodbye," she said, "It's time to go," she said
"You've done all you can here, and now
You've got to think of you, you know this is killing you
So for once, put yourself first"
But I'm holding onto air
It's a long way to fall my love
But what do I know?
Tomorrow may show me how
Now don't you be here, when I come back around
You know how hard it is to let go
So don't you let me change my mind
Don't let me in again
'Cause you know, you know I love you so
I love you so
And I'm holding onto air
It's a long way to fall my love
But what do I know?
Tomorrow may show me how to fly
'Cause even now I still pray
That this is not forever
But I guess we'll see
I met an angel and she told me you'd be okay
She said, "Don't worry Babe"
But I'm holding onto air
It's a long way to fall my love
Weakness
(February 2002)
I am not the girl you think I am
You may think I am, but you’re wrong
‘Cause I am not the girl you think I am
And if I was, yeah, even if I a
I’ll try not to be
And I am not the kind to cry over a guy
No I am not the kind to lose sleep over a man
So don’t expect to see me cry over you
‘Cause even if I did, and even if I do
I won’t let you see
So listen to what I have to say
You’re not gonna win me back this way
Trying to make me admit that I care
‘Cause I’m never gonna come crawling back to you
And I may miss you
For a day or two
But I’ll be better off alone
So whatever you say or you do
You’ve already done your worst to me
So listen to what I have to say
You’re not gonna win me back this way
Trying to make me admit that I care
‘Cause I’ll never say it, no, you know I never will
‘Cause I’m never gonna come crawling back to you
And if you know me as well as you think you do
You’ll know that not everything I say is necessarily true
But I am far too strong to give in to you
Or maybe I’m too weak to trust myself to
Words Unsung
(August 2009)
If it’s all the same to you
I’d rather fall for someone else
I’d appreciate if you
Tried harder to avoid me
‘Cause I can’t seem to stay away from you
It would be very
Inconvenient for me
To have to change my point of view
You’re not a prince on paper
At least not the one I was expecting
How dare you walk right in, trampling
Fairytale dreams that I’ve spent years collecting?
I’m becoming
Number one in
Denying what’s really going on
But please hear the words unsung
In my defence I’ve never felt like this before
You know you’re throwing me off
How can you expect me to be calm, relaxed
When you know
It would be so very
Embarrassing for me
To have to admit defeat
So reluctantly
To fall so reluctantly
In love
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